What's it all about?

Here...we...go.  I write this as I picture Heath Ledger in "The Dark Night."  My wife and I recently started going to a new church and have joined the Sunday School class.  The current class is studying spiritual disciplines right now with the purpose of becoming more like Christ.  One of the verses they have focused on is 1 Tim. 4:7b which states, "...train yourself to be godly."  Over the years I have really felt the closest to God when I have been actively reading my Bible and spending time in prayer and meditation.  However, during the last year my life has been filled with change, stress, and a lack of consistency in anything.  Without getting into too much detail, I quit my job of almost 10 years at our church, started another job, began attending a new church, quit my new job and started another since I was not enjoying my new vocation and couldn't sleep more than 4 hours a night.  I retrospect I see that when I needed God the most in my life, I was seeking Him the least.  What is that about?  I was filled with such stress that I didn't have the energy to seek God, yet I needed Him more than ever. 

This past week we were challenged look at where we want to be in our walk with God in a week....in a month....and in 6 months.  We were asked to be specific with S.M.A.R.T. goals (specific, measurable, attainable, something with an "r", and something with a "t")...as you can tell, I was really paying attention.  Anyways, I definitely wanted to be at a place of actively seeking God again.  The movie Julie and Julia came to my mind and I thought maybe a blog about my successes and failures would be helpful.  Maybe not to anyone who might be reading this, but at least helpful to me.  So over the next year and I going to record what God is teaching me, what insights I have gained through my daily Bible reading, and anything else that I feel is relevant to this project.  So, I am going to actively seek God.  No passive, sit-in-the-pew only, "let some one else tell me about God when I could be experiencing Him myself" kind of Christianity for me.  I'm excited to be back on the path again.  I am excited to meet with God again.  I'm excited to reconnect with my old friend.